Today is the day... This is it, the day I've been waiting over twenty years for. October 21st 2015. I used to watch that movie over and over again, ask my mom, she'll tell you. To me, it's more than just a movie, it's more than just a fun thing to think about. As silly as it may seem, baby Charles connected true importance to that date, I was a kid, kids are dumb and think about stupid crap, for me, October 21st 2015 was some kind of strange ultimate day, a day I'd revere as some kind of holy. It's silly I know, I know it now, but that doesn't mean I can ignore the significance young me put on this day. So in honor of kid me I'm writing this, and thinking about where I am in my life, where I have been, and where I'm going.

All I could foresee for certain all those years ago is that I'd be thirty years old, wow, I thought, what an old man, I'll probably be married with kids paying a mortgage. I didn't consider the thought that maybe I'd never grow up, that I'd be a big kid still, just as excited about things like Star Wars now as I was back then. I suppose that's something to rejoice over, because the last thing I want is to be a boring "adult". I'm like a kid who knows lots and lots of stuff, and I'm ok with that. I'm working on bettering myself physically, which I'm sure baby Charles would be happy to hear. I feel my best years are right around the corner *groan* says young me but no seriously! Hear me out! I have a serious plan, one that has me moving back to New York in less than a year, I'm nine years deep into my career, an actual career and up until now I've been in the amateur league, but I'm moving up to the pros, why do you think I'm working so hard to drop all this weight?

I remember I had dreams, I had aspirations, but they were nothing crazy, I didn't know what I wanted, I knew I was going to be big in something but what I didn't know. It wasn't until college that it clicked into place, as smoothly as a dovetail, it clicked, film, my career would lead me into film. A broad term, under it is video, motion graphics, graphic design, all that jazz, but it would all lead to the Mecca, the promised land, it would all lead to film eventually. And it's close, I can taste it in the air, it is right there, I just have to jump. That's what next year is, I'm going to jump and I feel like my life is really about to start. Not to say it hasn't been an interesting adventure so far, because it has. But something has been missing all this time, I'm sick of being a lowly "fan" of film,  this is my industry, it's my calling, I feel it in my soul, have felt it since I first stepped on to that campus in Florida.

So where am I going with this? I guess I'm writing this with the thought that if young me could read this, he can be assured that I have a good life so far and it's gearing up to get leagues better. And of course I'll be watching all three of them today!!